HELLO WORLD!

MOVED

2008-04-26T22:23:00.002+08:00

i hardly do such posts. haha ohwell.ANYWAY, NEW SITE.HTTP://PHOTOFRAME.WORDPRESS.COM:DBYEBYE BLOG.THANK YOU FOR BEING MY CHU1 QI4 TONG3 ALL THESE WHILE.MAYBE I'LL COME BACK WHEN I DECIDE I DON'T LIKE WORDPRESS.LOVE,CHANYUHUI(:

A LITTLE USED TO IT

2008-04-21T21:35:00.006+08:00

CONGRATS CDIV08 FOR WINNING NATS(:you guys played really well, really great job.The scene of CDiv Finals brought back some memories, sad ones maybe. But ohwell. We're Sec4s, SECFOURS. time really flies ): I remember always praying for Sec4 April to come (in Sec 2, 3 or 4), so that badminton would be over. Sigh. Took note of the fact that it was the last time RGS Badminton Batch08 was going to

INNER FEARS

2008-04-19T12:56:00.004+08:00

I want to go to Nova Scotia!& I want to learn alot alot of things (photography, squash, kickboxing etc) but there isn't time ):MYAs in 1 week or so and i haven't started studying.Am hoping results won't be same as last year's MYAs. Year 4 in RGS, havent failed any subjects, but barely passing in all ):I need to do work.I need to do work.I need to do work.Social

I STAND THERE AND SEARCH FOR YOU

2008-04-16T19:57:00.008+08:00

Kinda wish you were still around.

LAUGHING IT UP AS YOU PRETEND

2008-04-15T21:43:00.005+08:00

I'm confused. Haven't done any work since i came home O:Good Luck to people taking 2.4km tomorrow, i want to practise running too, so maybe i'll run, but ohwell i'll see.Anyway i realised today, that i haven't had a single Lit lesson for Art of Short Stories of something like that. Oh and i think we're getting back Math tomorrow O:I need to get Math in order ):& I need to start paying attention

STILL A BIT NAIVE

2008-04-14T20:19:00.006+08:00

Will you wipe my tears away Will you hold me closer When it's not alright When it's not ok Will you try to make me feel better Will you say alright Will you say ok Will you stick with me through whatever Or run awayI like the song, it's currently being played on the speakerr(:Anyway, supported Squash finals with ShiMin/JuanMin/Ellyn today. SCGS won, but cheer up squashers, yall were awesomee. Go

AN EMPTY ROOM

2008-04-12T23:36:00.002+08:00

Badmintoneverything ended on Wednesday. & i guess even though everyone did think of 'what ifs', we never really expected to lose. never expected for badminton to end so abruptly. the journey's been tough, and i guess wednesday/thursday made me realise that i'd actually miss coach, even though i say i hate her all the time. i don't really know what to think, but it sucked to see so many people

复杂的眼泪

2008-04-10T20:44:00.003+08:00

bloody hate it when this happens.witnessing the talking the argueing and the crying. every single time this happens everyone's day is spoilt. hate myself for reacting so insensitively. but i'm 15, i'm still 15, please. i don't know how to cope with it so i end up hurting people, i know it's wrong, and irresponsible, but i'm sorry.this is why i don't want to fucking grow up.watching is painful

CONGRESS

2008-04-06T22:51:00.003+08:00

just had an urge to say this.have been following the discussions on congress forum, and just cant help agreeing with the people there. but honestly, if people who're reaching home at 6 or earlier (i never thought people ever got the chance to have lunch at home during a school day!) are unhappy with their busy schedule, shouldnt i + alot of people be extremely unhappy? haha ohwell. it's very

HAND IN HAND

2008-04-06T17:42:00.011+08:00

i should stop slacking and start doing work.hate how i'm feeling right now.hello ellynkoh[/edit]okay i am DEPRESSED i am frickin 2-3 kg heavier compared to last year EOYs omg i am very saddened. meatballs today made me 1.4kg heavier. i'm hoping it'll go away but the weight after eating meatballs usually stay so i am saddened-er.i should stop eating two meals for recess everyday.i should stop

AN ECHO IN MY HEAD

2008-04-05T22:39:00.008+08:00

okay firstly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA PANGHAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE LAUHAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIE LIMHAPPY BIRTHDAY ALETHEA TANgod, so many birthdays this week!!special shout out to Elaine Lauthank you for everything for the past few months/year whatever, jiayou for school and yes you probably heard enough of whatever i just said. anyhow, be strong no matter what i love you! & congrats you + waddle CADs for

BEAR WITH ME

2008-03-31T21:00:00.007+08:00

okay there is honestly SOMETHING wrong with me but i can't figure it out and so i can't do anything about it. have been feeling really really out of place, all the time doing things i normally won't do. losing my temper and feeling so... weird. it... doesn't feel right being myself anymore. it's like, i'm just a lost soul walking around and i can't find go back to being myself, that is, if i ever

FAITH

2008-03-30T20:22:00.004+08:00

Sunday! The end of week 2, and the start of week 3.Week 2 was kinda shitty, with all 5 days being quite horrible.Monday night was crappy, god, seriously. Tuesday was... also crappy, mainly studying at the library, but hard, because of certain things. Wednesday... stomachache and feeling like shit, & feeling all weird and trying too hard till i got told off by a group of people/friends. Thursday,

CHIJ ST NICHOLAS GIRLS'

2008-03-29T21:10:00.005+08:00

FOOD AND FUNFAIR.first time back since 2 years + 1 month (?).loved it(:saw a few primary school friends, but not many.amanda and yityng were there but when they told me i had to leave ):ohwell, thank you cheryl choo for the company throughout!had fun with ellyn and krystal and for awhile, penny (:stnicholas = happy + carefree(:thank you, for tonight. helped alot.

在走廊上罚站打手心

2008-03-27T16:36:00.003+08:00

haha ohwelli've no idea what to do.ah, my instant noodles is getting overcooked.i miss imcb ):math tomorrow :/the random shots of pain better not happen during math.

LARGER THAN LIFE

2008-03-26T21:50:00.004+08:00

ah, i have no idea why i am here!i think i am going insane(:oohz, cynicism!one cycle, repeat repeat repeat.VICIOUS....backstreet boys(:

CHERISH.

2008-03-24T18:04:00.003+08:00

I usually don't like walking home from the MRT, but there are times i like it, because when there's nobody behind/in front of me, i can blast music in my ears and talk to myself about everything i'm unhappy about. That way, i can't hear it, and nobody else can too. I think everybody should try it. Somehow, for those few minutes, I am the most coherent I can get, and i don't have to stumble along

BATTERY IS LOW

2008-03-23T11:51:00.005+08:00

feel like blogging but have absolutely nothing to blog about. blahblah.am supposed to be doing math, but... ...anyhow, changes to viva schedule again! don't ever want to have the stupid viva lah wth. it's just going to be proof that i haven't paid attention in class since... forever. urgh stupid school.anyhow, reached home at 11.50pm(?) and fell asleep like super soon. boredom.Jiang with

SHE HATES TIME

2008-03-21T19:26:00.005+08:00

Beijing Trip 07 <3> rgbadminton(:Horton today, with family (:Planned to do work, but haven't started O:Ohwell.Anyhow, Learning Journey is over for me! It was... okay. World Trade Dialogue Session on Wednesday was... interesting, but tiring.Wine Brewery with Krystal Tsai + 402 afterwards.World Trade Game (406+ 408) on Thursday, it was okay.was in Ghana, srzly, poorest country there, but it was

NEVER SAY GOODBYE

2008-03-18T21:52:00.003+08:00

One of the Korean Songs i'm listening to,My Girl!DIARY POSTS + KOREAN SONGS CHEER ME UP.WHO SAYS IM EMO(:thank you, i love you<3

绝不能失去你

2008-03-18T00:06:00.003+08:00

沒有你我会是谁心停在哪里都不对把今天擦掉昨天空白一片那一天在那一天可以继续未完情节在这交叉点谁陪在你身边就算全世界都要把你否定也不能让我放弃你就算我们的过去都沒有了证明我依然守护你Oh Baby Baby Baby My Baby Baby我决不能失去你你手心你声音还占领我的心怎能忘記想你就像是呼吸Oh Baby Baby Baby My Baby Baby我决不能失去你不管你在哪里我一定会找到你没一天没有一天用流星雨成全誓言你就会发现永远并不遥远就算全世界都要把你否定也不能让我放弃你就算我们的过去都沒有了证明我依然守护你OhOh Baby Baby Baby My Baby Baby我决不能失去你你手心你声音还占领我的心怎能忘记想你就像是呼吸Oh Baby Baby Baby My Baby Baby我决不能失去你不管你在哪里我一定会找到你Oh Baby Baby Baby

BEAUTIFUL GIRLS

2008-03-17T21:12:00.002+08:00

SECFOURS'07 FAREWELLwas good(: never stopped eating junk, and ate quite abit of the (ben&jerry's) icecreams(:performances were great! personally thought the sec2s'07s' performance was damn good, everyone was laughing and laughing and laughing. sec3s'07 sang a series of songs for them!Jenny for Cheryl, Shape of My Heart for Yingqi, I Want It That Way for Sheena, 老鼠爱大米 & Say It Isn't So for Macey,

OVERDUE

2008-03-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

training was... slack at first, then we had to do weird sit-ups thingums so now my SACRUM hurts, alot. i think it's called the sacrum, that's what google said. okay whatever.currently listening to My Girl Soundtrack, loveeeeeeee.haven't started on the compre that's due today O:shall start after this!oh oh i got my new phone today!finally decided on truffle-brown K770i after calling elainelau &

SARANG HAE YO

2008-03-14T00:25:00.003+08:00

I'm falling in love with My Girl all over again, can't stop thinking about it <3March Holidays are ending.Rested alot over the past few days, in a way, and also realised how much i hate school.Just really glad i had 'alone' time on Tuesday, life's damn good/awesome when you can spend the whole day at home and the only thing you've got to worry about is whether you'd be able to finish watching the

I DON'T WANT TO BE

2008-03-12T19:28:00.002+08:00

anything other than what I've been trying to be latelyback again.training was alright, worked the hardest i ever did for that 5-10 minutes.haven't heard what she said for what, 1-2 years? ohwell, it didn't have any effect on me, not sure if it ever did, but not anymore at least.anyhow, TsaiTing the great & Elly_Rawks pangsehed me today.walked around, bought dinner, went home.Math was...

SMILE!

2008-03-11T18:38:00.005+08:00

March holidays have been pretty good(:Only 7 people came for Aspen Chem on sSturday, MsTay was going on about giving birth & whatnot for 1/2 hour or so hahah. Sat next to Ellynkoh! Got quite irritated over some stuff, called people and started ranting non stop, haha ohwell. Grandma's birthday at night, lots of food. started watching My Girl again!:D i never thought i'd watch it again omgggg so

SWAY

2008-03-06T20:46:00.004+08:00

its amazing how the tiniest thing can get you so fucking angry and irritated and make you want to cry.i cant find my bloody Aspen Biology DNA notes and i need it so badly to do my fucking bio fa and because i don't know where the hell is it- i hate my stupid lousy brain/memory- i have to bloody search the internet when it can be so much easier if i have the bloody notes.& JNg was being a bloody

哪裡有彩虹告訴我

2008-03-03T20:35:00.004+08:00

'What use is there being a plane if you're not utilised?'best statement i've heard.yes i'm sorry i laugh, i'm sorry i smile, i'm sorry i try so hard to pretend not to care, i'm sorry i sometimes wonder if you even know, i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.i'm sorry i suck so bad. i really am.

BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS

2008-03-02T22:46:00.003+08:00

not really in the mood to blog but ohwell, might as well since i finished my part of simulation earlier than expected. sorry saw adeline & stef for doing so little >< shit my attitude sucks.urgh.anyhow, this is for YOU. i love you very very much please please please don't be bothered by the sec1 who is absolutely so irritatingly horrendous. okay i know we do get angry at each other but this is

THERE WILL BE GOOD TIMES

2008-02-23T12:59:00.004+08:00

I should strive to type more sophisticatedly. Sux to have bad English.Mom's birthday today.Bought flowers + card + made this:Okay, presentation sux, & real easy to make, but whatever, i secretly think i have a talent in the culinary field.'M' for 'Mummy' heh.Dinner at Botanical Garden later i think.Stayed over at Elaine's house yesterday, with Shimin. Phone battery died so it was really

BECAUSE OF YOU

2008-02-21T21:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY FREAK2!!!!!!!:Dgot really mad after school today, felt damn horrible, but nevermind. history test postponed to tuesday, no idea if that's good or bad news.ee the news just reported something about eclipses omgggg i want to see ): crap luh. sux. the next one's in 2010 and all the eclipses are never visible to people in Asia.& i don't like the post below, so gross. k

A PLACE THAT WE CAN GO TO

2008-02-19T22:33:00.005+08:00

i keep thinking of the GAP jacket that i wanted in august last year!!!!!!!sux, cos it wasnt there the next time i went (like duh since we were so busy + lazy)i like it alot alot alot alot alot even though i am not an avid supporter of GAP.i realllllllly like it! screw that hmphf.sux sux sux. D:

I CAN LAUGH IT OFF

2008-02-18T20:02:00.008+08:00

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i kept over-estimating the power of my metabolism rate and now i'm REALLY 1-2 kg heavier than last week.ohgod i hate this.the whole bingeing(?) thing is coming back again. i keep eating till i want to puke and even so i still don't stop. rar.oh my god. URGH. all those running in sec1/2/3 gone to waste!!!!!!!im crossing my fingers and praying and praying

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU

2008-02-16T22:13:00.003+08:00

Totally random title, because that song is currently playing on iTunes.I thought we'd be okay, that i wouldn't feel awkward. But that phone call today reminded me. Guess it's fate, since it's no one's fault we were both annoyed when my call got through.Yay Current Song: Everybody's Changing.Haven't studied for history/done history FA.Don't want to screw history up, but it's just so hard, i don't

THE WONDER OF A FAIRYTALE

2008-02-15T19:26:00.007+08:00

"She looked up and saw me and stalled. Her face didn't break into a smile like it usually did. The hand around my heart squeezed tighter. But at least she saw me and that was the main thing. Don't ever take for granted when people look in your eyes - you've no idea how lucky you are. Actually, forget the luck, you've no idea how important it is to be acknowledged, even if it is with an angry

2008-02-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

tired.):

EMPTY

2008-02-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

laptop's gonna die any moment now o.oanyhow, pretty worried about school/work & crap since i'll be missing quite a few lessons the next two weeks? & there's still catching up to do since the start of competitions + what i missed last week + this coming monday. ohgoddddd zen me ban ):okay so bintan tomorrow. hope it'll be fun!buaiz

ALMOST

2008-02-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

getting more & more anti-social. even took a different bus route just to avoid people, wtf.I'll miss IMCB. The professors/scientists/Mr Ron Low & fellow Sec3-JC2 students (special mention to Kri Alwyn Cass2 Cass3 Charlene GarYim Clare WeiLun Amanda Tongtong & Cass1 Stuti Saw & Amanda Chin<3 ). Made quite a few mistakes, being forgetful & all, but lab skills have definitely improved, or at least i

DOESN'T REALLY MATTER

2008-02-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

IMCB (day 2) was quite productive even though we had quite a few hours free (to let the dna/proteins thing settle and stuff). more productive than yesterday anyway. shall post pictures when charlene sends them to me.went back to school today, did imcb powerpoint and yeah, went home at 7.30+pm.I don't know what to think anymore.AM TIRED.

就是那么简单几句我办不到

2008-02-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

IMCB (day 1) was okay. got quite boring, but ohwell.people were rather friendly but i'm anti-social so yeah.went back to school for guitar from 5.50-6.50pm.was thinking about it again.< /3

NOTHING NEW FOR ME

2008-02-03T13:00:00.001+08:00

hello, am very very tired, physically & psychologically.want to be hardworking, but no time + energy.grah tuition at 2, bye.):____________________(12.04am)early reunion dinner at grandma's house today & being there just reminded me of us.how we went there almost every single week, how we used to go swimming together, how we always went to macritchie to jog/play whatever every week, how we used to

TURN OUR HEARTS INSIDE OUT

2008-01-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

Zonals2 schools so far, both 5-0, which is a good thing!IMCB!best news/thing this week(: i really hope it's what i expect & Saw & I will be able to gain something! no school from 4th-11th(: [imcb + cny + bintan!] spoilt my guitar plans, which means i am very much screwed. either 1 prac + screwed performance or 1 prac + no performance. was crestfallen /incredulous, but i guess some thing's arent

WON'T YOU BE MY SOLID GROUND?

2008-01-20T09:30:00.001+08:00

20th, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUE!(:super sorry couldn't go to your party yesterday):i wasn't expecting that reaction.guess i should just shut up about it. im sorry i brought it up.guitar in 1hour+. then another 1-2h later is bio tuition, followed by chinese. by the time i reach home and start on homework, it'd be 7+pm, if im disciplined enough. gah, commonwealth ): even my grandma's thinking my i study

SO I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER

2008-01-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

& hope my dreams will take me theretis the 3rd weekend of 2008!O: heh okay, that was random. anyhow, it's been a tiring week, ate out everyday except friday i think. :/ was thinking on the mrt back home, & i've decided that DIET SHALL START ON MONDAY I DONT CARE I NEED TO LOSE BACK THE 1KG I'VE GAINED SINCE HEIGHT & WEIGHT. & SINCE SUPER ALOT OF PEOPLE APPLYING FOR IB I NEED TO BE GOOD AND STUDY.

TOO LATE TO FIGHT

2008-01-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I seeThis is what I wanna beSuddenly I see Why the hell it means so much to meis it too late? it's the time of the year again. we've gone through 3 years of it together, and it's going to be my/our last time. those mental images, the could-have-beens, all the what-ifs, wish those thoughts would go away. wish life wasnt so harsh huh. sigh. every year, the same thoughts & feelings get

WHERE THE SKIES ARE BLUE

2008-01-17T22:44:00.000+08:00

we've officially had 2 weeks of sec4 lessons, it is fricking boring. almost every single lesson i'll be dying to get out of class cos it is so bad. i dont know why, maybe it's cos i actually try super hard not to fall asleep anymore. resorted to folding cranes for the last few days but i've become bored of it. i just start to feel super restless & claustrophobic & very very very frustrated/pissed

这感觉已经不对

2008-01-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

today was a day of extreme moodswings O:getting really high during lunch after 4 hours of boredom.okay english was okay i guess, but it was started to get a little claustrophobic after 3+ hours.i contributed in english lesson today! omgg first time((:anyhow, the 1/2-1 hour or so after school was spent stomping around & yelling my frustration out like some fool cos i was so damn angry at i dont

WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL

2008-01-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

i'd wished it wouldn't hurt, but it did.what am i supposed to do?i'm a little used to wandering outside the rainyou can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the samethey say that if you can't talk about it, you're not over it.guess i'm not over it. then again even if you can talk about it, it doesnt mean anything.fuck im going crazy.

THINGS I'LL NEVER SAY

2008-01-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Math is over(:didn't put in much effort for it but i think i can pass so ohwell.talked to amanda, & went out with ellynkoh today. am pretty broke now after spending all my money @ nydc + sakae yesterday/today.i revived my diary today(:who's counting?

SLIPPING AWAY

2008-01-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday Jiawen!(:today was... tuition + dinner with jiawen elaine shimin weiting pingfang & zhixian. shimin came really late & sec4s were telling us about rj orientation. hilarious, laughed alot.my phone just died on me & i was in the midst of replying elkoh. right. ahwhatever.guess im selfish like that.-i miss you.

NEVER HAD IT ALL

2008-01-05T11:45:00.000+08:00

first day of lessons was quite a waste of time, but i suppose we wont be having many of slack days left in the school year, so yay, whatever.we had history for first block, so that probably is a good start to the year. i mean, as much as 306 doesn't want to fail math, who wants math lessons?sigh okay i feel incoherent.if in the process of trying...would you still try?-im sorry.

HELL FREEZES OVER

2008-01-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

SSEF/HSSRP for the past few hours.almost died from stress. but thank you very much penelope ng!:Dsorry im like horrible when im under stress. was damn snappy to my family, heh.anyhow, school today was boring! i think. no math tomorrow = no revision = die for math.NO MORE TRAININGS ON FRIDAYS. YAY(:forgot to call Jiang Ed. up & HAVENT BATHED. BYE.P.S. GPA increased by 0.1+!(:P.P.S. talked abit to

LEAVE YOUR THINGS BEHIND

2008-01-02T21:46:00.001+08:00

took me really long to realise that i should only try for things that im really passionate for, & not want things blindly.must . not . be . influenced . by . the . rgs . environment (which sucks, in many ways)okay Resolution No. 5 must come true!anyhow, 1st day of school wasn't v good, but passable i guess. today's training was both tiring & a waste of time. ahhwell. next training = saturday

TWO-WAY STREET

2007-12-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

been stupid the last few weeks. sigh ohwell.must start getting a grip on myselffff(:mm wasted my whole day yesterday, did like 1 question on math when i was supposed to do 4-5 hours of it. wtv. anyhow, team party/sleepover at yingqi's house. costume party, most of us dressed up abit. joonting/krystal/ellyn/me = ninja turtles.the night was basically... pizza + drinks for dinner, camwhoring with

I'LL BE WAITING

2007-12-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

We're friends, real friends. And that means, no matter how long it takes, when you finally do decide to look back, I’ll still be here. -Grey's AnatomyLike any other kind of love, friendship can be lost in our lives due to neglect, anger, or sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered.It takes a long time to grow an old

YOU GOT ME HOOKED

2007-12-29T12:11:00.000+08:00

Change of template.I am very intellectual, I watch the History Channel.I can tell you about YellowStones & Silver Bridge & Superhumans.I can also tell you Hannah Montana will be played at 9pm on 7th & 8th Jan.I can also also tell you that badminton trainings will probably be on Saturdays (aftn) next year.I can also also also tell you that LEY will be one of our teachers in charge next year.This

HAVE YOU EVER

2007-12-29T01:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's overKnowing there's so much more to saySuddenly the moment's goneAnd all your dreams are upside downAnd you just wanna change the way the world goes roundTell me, have you ever loved and lost somebodyWished there was a chance to say I'm sorryCan't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, BabyHave you ever felt your heart was

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW

2007-12-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

CCAO was tiring fullstop. (haha look look fullstop fullstop. its double fullstop!) but i had a very good meal when i reached home so that made up for it. (:so my court shoes & very nice shoebag's with debby now! HSSRP from 10-12.15pm, hung arnd with badminton people after that, talked to Mr AKL with Liying for like super long, even though we don't even know each other (ooh hahaha, he's nice).Oh

you could never see it through my eyes

2007-12-27T01:55:00.000+08:00

I went for guitar prac today, which makes me the guai-est person ever. It wasn't so bad, we learnt a new song. Was watching Channel 5 News @ 9.30pm & they interviewed people about New Year Resolutions, which reminded me that i haven't had any in years (then again, may be i never had any). So, My New Year resolution, is to go for all the guitar pracs that I am free to go for. The psychologist/

the grinch is here

2007-12-25T20:46:00.000+08:00

as much as i dont like double posting, i am currently in the mood to blog so whatever.anyway, i went to check what i did on Christmas last year & look:christmas! aka 25.12.06 aka monday woke up at 11plus i think. slacked arnd. we finally left the house to go to ikea to look arnd at 3-4 pm. walked arnd. bought some stuff. ate at the cafe. quite alot of people but still breathable.reached home at

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

i don't like it when you're not happy.the last time i remember you smiling very happily in photos was in May, in Greece. & that sucks. ahwhatever.ccao is on friday & i havent replied guitar people or badminton people. rar im so screwed up. don't even know how to bloody play the pieces anymore. so now i'll have to force myself to actually go for pracs, & try to catch up with the rest. im sure that

tiny little fractures

2007-12-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

i think i am going to send/give NEW YEAR CARDS har har har:Djust need to wait for sis to come back from new york then i can get what i want:Dbut i think i need to ransack your computer, which is drastically impossible ): then i need to find people! ahhwell, i'll see...ohwell batchmates are definitely gna get something(: all 5, i hope, heh.5.16pm

do what you feel in your heart is right

2007-12-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

went out with mom & sis to vivo, dinner @ Marche, watched Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium again. it was supposed to be Alvin & the Chipmunks but whatever.just read blogs.you make me i feel like an idiot?11.16pm

we'll make it through

2007-12-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

team party was alright, the teachers & their very cute children came. getting wet and chasing after charmain ellyn vivian/amanda was interesting. credits to xianning & family this team party could come true(: next one's the newyearparty @ yingqi's house, hope everyone turns up.anyhow, yesterday was the last day of Jiang for me, so no more waking up at 8am, finally. did math @ bishan library from

keep holding on

2007-12-19T15:28:00.000+08:00

"Take chances because it's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to stare at that line for the rest of your life." "theres a difference between pretty & beautifulwhen someone is pretty, they have a goodappearance. but when someone is beautiful,they shine on the inside & out <3" "if there`s just one piece of advice i can give you, it`s this :when there`s something you really

high school never ends

2007-12-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

have been very irritable for teh past few days. dont really feel like blogging but i can't think of anything to do right now. decided to go for trng tomorrow instead of Jiang since it's the last trng & weird as it sounds, i want to suffer with everyone else if we do physical hahah. my hair is a problem though, so irritating ): oh Nerine decided to go on thursday & friday instead too!(:anyhow, i

a long long story

2007-12-16T23:21:00.001+08:00

was looking through archives.time really flies. anyhow, the following is rather incoherent. so i recommend you dont read it. just a way to sort out my thoughts since i think better typing it out. basically, just read the black parts!everytime i look at a blogpost, flashbacks after flashbacks appear, & some of them dont even seem that familiar.i can't remember what i was emo about in august though

letting go

2007-12-14T12:31:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU YOU & YOU ):& the necklace that i had long ago. blahblah.don't really want 2008 to come, cos then whatever happened this year, will have to be referred to as 'last year' & whatever happened last year, will have to be referred to 'the year before last' or '2 years ago'. argh ):i'm such an asshole urgh.i dont want to refer to the year we stopped talking as 'last year'.i dont want to

best of both worlds?

2007-12-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

been wanting to do this these days, except that i'd prefer a punching bag. anyway, debby called to ask if i wanted to buy christmas decor with her, but since i was supposed to go with second sis to borders, ...sorry debby. but then, because i wanted to read my book/we're both lazy pigs, we ended up procrastinating & here i am, blogging. zzz. then again, because we're having dinner as a family

hold it tight

2007-12-12T00:26:00.000+08:00

completed these 3 books so far, next goal is to complete the next 2 books, followed by the rest that've been lying around for a long long time. (e.g. 1984) O:don't know if i still have the interest/motivation to read these few books but ohwell. at least i read 3 books already, ignoring the fact that some/all of them're chicklit. heh. anyway, The Golden Compass+walking around bugis/dhoby/cityhall

that's the way life usually is

2007-12-10T17:13:00.000+08:00

what you hope for, it never happens.5.24pm

It Never Ends

2007-12-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

school's starting in 3 weeks. don't really want to busy myself with school/badminton/guitar. seriously havent done much this holiday, except beijing trip, & well, chinese lessons. i don't even remember how to play the guitar pieces anymore. to think i actually worked hard for those two. lol. anyhow, time's passing quite slowly, but i'm fine with that. hope the rest of the holidays stay that

schizophrenia!

2007-12-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

got this from the internet, heh. brings back memories on how i used to take 1-2 hours to bathe every single day, playing with the water & everything(: i remember being very fascinated with how water looked when its splashed in the air, haha. theyre like.. crystals, or diamonds maybe, but wait. water looks nicer than both so... (:okay so i bought another book today & i'm half done(: if i finish

Sugar, Spice & Everything Nice.

2007-12-05T22:09:00.001+08:00

i was lying ( & falling asleep) at the corner of my mom's bed while she went to the toilet, then this male nurse came & covered me with the blanket on the bed. sweeeeet<3 & i'm not even a patient laa. all these people/tiny actions, they totally make my day<3 somehow, it reminded me of how Chef Alfie got a cab & paid the driver to send me & penelope home after our hssrp interview. it was just so

super.

2007-12-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

talked to my sister today - & cried, over dinner. probably the first time i properly talked to her about it. ohwell(:anyway, found out just now that trng is in the morning tomorrow, which means it clashes with Jiang ): i dont want to miss either >:/ blahblah.i wish rainbows appeared more often! (i think the engrish is wrong, but whatever) 11.02pm

rgbt beijing trip {24th Nov - 30th Nov}

2007-12-01T03:43:00.000+08:00

photos(:Day 1: Flight to Beijing + Supermarket visit + Batch Talkgroup photo @ changi airport!Day 2: Olympic Stadium + Temple of Heaven + Friendly Match + Batch Talk olympic stadium(: park @ temple of heaven Day 3 & 4: Trainings & Friendly Matchesvery cool & coincidental YUHUI shuttlecocks(:Day 5: Tian An Men Square + Forbidden City + Silk Market F4 + ShanCai + Random Angmoh(: Mrs Teo + Mr Ng

will you still be around?

2007-11-22T15:15:00.001+08:00

okay, only blogging cos i dont like the post below to be at the top! so depressingg.anyhow, beijing in 1-2 days!i'm starting to enjoy chinese lessons at Jiang though, like seriously. so i can't really bear to go ): but then i guess when im back there'll still be 5-6 more days! maybe i'll ask my mom to let me go next year. hohoho, request of the century. it will be very pleasant news indeed(: who

'if you believe that dreams come true' - you're a fool.

2007-11-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

"just because you're from RGS doesn't mean you can be a bitch"there was the anger & disbelief, at the absurdity of the statement. afterall, the argument was over a cup of milo.but after while, when you're given some quiet time alone to think, you arrive at a single question.have i (really) changed?-----i hate it how you're so right about me. i hate it how you got it so spot on, how one statement

keep that faith

2007-11-18T13:10:00.001+08:00

you taught me to ignore those feelings of disgust, to do what i want to do/feel.but now it's all coming back D: rargh.i dont knowwww. but, i suppose it'll do me some good, find out exactly what's happening.#$%&@really wish my mom'll just stop making me feel @#$%^&.okay, i suppose it's not her fault at all but hello. i've got my problems. stop adding to it. IM TIRED. it's not my fault i don't like

itunes is being such a bitch.

2007-11-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

exactly 1 year ago i'd be spending my first night in jiangnan, probably going high in the hotel room with jermaine & ellyn. just somehow, i've neither the energy nor interest to reminisc.ohwell.today's cassandra's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASSANDRA TAN(: remember how we used to call you snoopy? those were the times. it's very cool how we've kept in contact despite being in different schools(:

breathe easy

2007-11-16T12:56:00.000+08:00

Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.Rose: I promise.Jack: Never let go.Rose: I'll never let go.

twinkle twinkle little stars

2007-11-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

Farewell Alma Mater 2007 was good. didn't take pictures but heck, others did. it was nice seeing the sec4s all dressed up. super super pretty, each and everyone of them. an eye-opener indeed(:kudos to decor comm for doing such a great job. decor was awesome. & of course, all the other comms in the OT did a great job too.thank you Ruoxi and Ee Iyn for being the best backstage helpers. basically,

fade away

2007-11-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

FAM's less than 24 hours away. i hope the sec4s enjoy it. 1.50am

a new beginning

2007-11-11T00:03:00.001+08:00

just read Jasselyn Seet's blog.anyhow, farewell gm was okay. i guess i took psb night as farewell, so there wasnt that great an impact made on me today. afterall, psb07's already retired, haha. but thank you yityng & kevy for putting in all the effort to make gm happen. okay so like jasselyn said, the journey in psb has been awesome, as a whole. v v grateful that i was in it, and definitely

broken promises

2007-11-08T13:53:00.000+08:00

"The human heart dares not stay away too long from that which hurt it most. There is a return journey to anguish that few of us are released from making." - Lillian Smithhappy deepavali! the 1st week of the holidays is coming to an end.the receiving of exam results was 1 month ago already. o.overy soon, december will come, and vroom, we'll all be counting down to 2008.or will we?but as they say,

a beautiful sorrow

2007-11-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

"It is a curious sensation: the sort of pain that goes mercifully beyond our powers of feeling. When your heart is broken, your boats are burned: nothing matters any more. It is the end of happiness and the beginning of peace." - George Bernard Shaw"It isn't enough for your heart to break because everybody's heart is broken now." - Allen Ginsberg"Sorrow is better than laughter, for by the sadness

break a heart, will you?

2007-11-06T10:05:00.000+08:00

just came back from the airport 1/2 hour ago.the night was spent at raffles city, marina square, yishun & changi.ohwell.10.09am

i'm sorry if i'm too stupid for you.

2007-11-03T13:24:00.001+08:00

v v irritated. was talking to ellyn on the phone, & it reminded me of what someone said to me a few months back. i am going to study v v v v v hard next year and i am going to get at least a 3.6. either that, or i am going to beat YOU. & prove everyone wrong. wtf. the only reason why you're scoring better is cos you study so damn fucking hard. so what if you have a higher GPA. i may not be the

crazy little thing called love

2007-11-03T12:17:00.001+08:00

i have no idea why i have the urge to blog everyday, haha.& title's totally random but yeah, it's gonna be random from now on!anyhow, i just called Aspen & i think i'm changing to Chemistry Sunday Class! O:dont know if it's a good idea, but whatever.really hope i made the right decision O:well the choice wasnt fully made by me & ahh whatever. i consider too much.then again, the only reason why i

2007-11-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

SELF DISCIPLINE SELF DISCIPLINE SELF DISCIPLINE.keep it HARD.you've got to try harder chanyuhui.it may not be the best idea, but it's the only way you've got.11.55pm

a long long post

2007-11-01T18:20:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's the last day of school.i can still remember what happened on the last day of sec1. O:singing the barney song together with the rest of 103'05 & mrs chan saying her speech & people getting sad/happy over results & what my mom said when i told her my results & everything.everyone's changed so much. well i suppose there're good and bad sides.i was so fat in sec1!)))): ohwell, haha.i

2007-10-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

probably the 5th time i'm editing this shit?what the hell.oh the irony.8.54pm9.21pm

netball carn'07, 306 ftw!

2007-10-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

yeahh 306 ftw(: we totally pwnzed netball carn. 1st for cheers, 1st for netball, 3rd for banner, middle for shooting ( D:) i guess the shooters -weixian nora me, could have done so much better. ahhwell.anyhow, staff ihg was boring. all the sec3s did was stay outside to do the board. trng was okay. had to run 3km, but it felt quite good to perspire after so long, haha(:superficialities10.52pm

2007-10-28T15:04:00.000+08:00

does the environment shape us, or do we shape the environment?why does it seem like everyone's gone, when you need them?i've been such a horrible person.3.14pm

Crash & Burn

2007-10-28T14:05:00.001+08:00

When you feel all aloneAnd the world has turned its back on youGive me a moment please to tame your wild wild heartI know you feel like the walls are closing in on youIt's hard to find relief and people can be so coldWhen darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymoreLet me be the one you callIf you jump I'll break your fallLift you up and fly away with you into the nightIf

ColorGenics

2007-10-27T11:42:00.000+08:00

Name: chanyuhuiDate: 10/26/2007Colorgenics Number: 56120734--------------------------------------------------------------------------------You are tired of the various 'ups' and 'downs' of life at this time. If only you could win a lottery - or better still, be the heir to a large inheritance which would allow you to afford a life of absolute luxury. This day dreaming will shortly pass and

contentment

2007-10-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

absolutely appalled & disappointed by my own behavior & foolishness.no, it isn't what you think it is.moving on, jeanette's bbq was an eye-opener, for real.definitely helped shaped my perspective of certain things.allowed me to realise how much we've missed out on, pursuing satisfaction/ perfection.ohwell.skipped both guitar prac & badminton trngs this week :/

Hey There Delilah

2007-10-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hey there DelilahWhat's it like in New York City?I'm a thousand miles awayBut girl tonight you look so prettyYes you doTimes Square can't shine as bright as youI swear it's trueHey there DelilahDon't you worry about the distanceI'm right there if you get lonelyGive this song another listenClose your eyesListen to my voice it's my disguiseI'm by your sideOh it's what you do to meOh it's what you

TROUBLED

2007-10-26T00:29:00.001+08:00

changed blog template.its nice, isnt it?(:still havent decided if im going for 201 class gathering or training. :/wish i could go for both ):anyhow, went to school for fam meeting today.congrats 306 for winning 2nd place despite the total lack of practice.sigh. very, very worried D: D:12.43am

2007-10-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

i guess i thought wrong.i suppose there're pros & cons to everything. ohwell.but then again, who can i kid? i'm just not good enough. okay, i should stop brooding over stupid things.anyhow, it's 'that time of the year' again.the nostalgia & everything.its like, you're looking forward to hopefully, a better year,yet you just cant bear to let go of the past. sigh.its been a very fulfilling year.new